faces bare of all emotions
dwindling disappointments,
promised dim serenity.
the next second,
it faded away.
my tears
might not be as precious as a princess’
but the last drop of it
i will shed for you.
How i missed the tears against my face.
They get hotter with every inch they travel.
what’s worse than an angel losing its wings?
it’s losing its chaste heart.
to the point that i don’t even want to share the pain.
It’s mine and mine alone.
My twisted philosophy never betrayed me.
It was you who did.
But then again, you didn’t leave.
I pushed you away.
Why?
I remain faithful to my philosophies.
As they have surrendered their undying devotion under my name.
changes happen for a reason.
i wouldn’t mind changing every single day if that’s what life calls for.
life?
since when did life matter to me?
since i learned to be happy?
happy?
how long had i been denying myself happiness?
too long for me to remember.
but in this happiness,
i should never forget the map of sacrifices.
The very same line was said a year ago.
This time, it tells a different story.
It was in fact quite the opposite.
No? It was the exact opposite.
I really am a year older.
Happy Birthday to me.
Pain strikes me in form of guilt.
I’ve been wanting to put an end to it.
But i couldn’t, not in this condition.
When you scream, i bleed ten times.
So if you love me, let me hear your voice, torture me once again.
I’ve never felt this trapped before.
